Saturday, November 30, 2013

FEARS AFTER GRADUATING

Now that the four years at college has ended, new sets of dilemma have begun to creep into me. To differentiate between what I want to be and what graduating is forcing upon me has been tougher than what I had expected it to be.


Last week, on a chilly Sunday morning , I was ever so close to getting a job. A real 9-5 job. Fortunately the job was not there for me, and that has given me enough time to ponder upon what changes a 'real' job would bring in me. The changes were horrifying.

With a friend with whom I studied at school, I sat down to analyze what we were up to after graduating. First thing that strike us was we could not go to TU ground to watch Nepal play unless for real coincidence. We could not hang out unless for Friday nights. In fact, the biggest fear was we were about to lose control over our lives, and hand it over to someone else. Someone else who has more money than us, or is more experienced than us or to sum it up the one whom we envy in secret. The one who is yeah not wholly 'free' from burdens of this 'sell your time and skill if you want some money' but ya more free enough to enjoy the same desire as that of ours in a more recurring fashion.

The choice is still ours. We could fight on with what our beliefs are for another extra yard. Every day that passes now without a contract paper with our name on it , is a day which we survived to die another day. The dreams that we built our life on, the control we wished to have on our destiny will slowly fade as we will be another commodity that someone will tame with a whip as wicked as money.

To mark this feeling, I remember two quotes.

Karl Marx, "For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood."~ The German Ideology

Paraphrasing Osho, "Why do hippies leave their earlier lifestyle begin to settle and marry around 35? Because their mind finally makes them lose their battle to become unique, their mind wins over their being and brings them back to the crowd." ~ The Search
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99
For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

3 comments:

  1. There's so many things to say, yet am getting wordless !! Reading the post was like am looking at the mirror !!
    Life's always a big question Sumedh, hope you get along well... Best wishes :)!!

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    1. Thank you Kanchan, lets hope we do what we always wanted with our lives! Cheers!

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  2. Really, getting into the deep of anything is not that easy. Patience was still there to counter-fort us but also drive by something. #Straggle

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