Now-a-days I don't watch TV as often, especially when I am in pursuit of rapid updates on current affairs. But the fixing scandal in Indian Premier League, the richest tournament in Cricket History, got me glued to the idiot box. I knew it was inevitable and felt sorry for the players who were involved. I cursed from within the glamour lit world of today forcing men to strip off his morale in return of money.
That day might have ended the same way as others had my dad not asked me for more on 'fixing'. Probably, he got to know of the term through his colleagues as my father doesn't fancy cricket much. I tried to shoot out a precise sentence to satisfy his new born curiosity. I thought for a while only to realize that 'fixing' is bigger than what we generally think of-it is omnipresent in today's world. Dealing with my internal ordeal, I slipped away from my dad giving a quick makeshift reply, like the one you would give to a confusing Viva question.
My mind grew restless the whole day. Sometimes, during my Undergraduate course,I used to find enough time and lonely space to ponder whether I would still have been what I am if I was born to a different society or lets say in Mars. The more I thought the more I became cynical of everything around me. I later resigned to the fact that rather than the heavenly stars that the astrologers believe to fix our destiny its circumstances, culture, ethics, religion etc. around us that makes us what we are. In fact, most of these factors had coupled down to fix my path. The difference between me obeying my 'fixed' path and the cricket players' fixing scandal are separated by a thin line of legitimacy and public perception.
I remember when I was in +2,my parents would buy me any number of Text book in Physics but not a cricket bat. Probably by then, my childhood dream of becoming a cricketer had narrowed down to being a better cricketer at college, but still mindset of my parents, resulting from the tradition(where playing sports at free time is supposed to hamper regular studies) that they were up brought in, did not let me own a proper cricketing bat. That was a less subtle form of fixing as I was equally passionate to both Physics and Cricket. Giving one up for another was a bitter truth that I had realized by then.
However, when I passed out my +2 I was fixed up big time. I realized studying Physics, in most cases, would lead me being a teacher in Nepal. We lacked proper research facilities and the option of studying abroad seemed almost bleak with a one off bad Physics score in Grade 11. Fixed by the circumstances engineering seemed to be the closest option. The education system fixed me to an engineering degree. In most cases, I will get a better girl to marry and more dowry (if i accept) for being an engineer compared to a 'physicist'. My family is happy for my father didn't want me to become a teacher like him, me myself might have fallen to the lure of 'Er' tag., whatever be the case I was rather helplessly fixed than those IPL fellows. Yet none are arrested or accused of.
So for most Nepalese, lets say a Brahmin boy, we have billions of girls to fall in love and marry as a boy; but well we are at most eligible to some hundreds fixed by what our parents, society, religion thinks amenable to us. And when Nepalese go to vote this time around they shall have the same leaders ahead of them as that of the failed CA. Things are fixed and we shall circle around them until something as radical as nothing that has happened yet shall happen.
Complaining all along,however I feel equally privileged to have my friends and family who helped me protect the core of what I am. I still think the same way that I used to in Grade 5. Whenever I had an opportunity to take decision independently, I feel I have taken it following the same pattern that I followed as a child. I feel proud that I have got my basics intact. Sometimes I feel for persons who were so cool earlier but have changed the belief and their corresponding ambition because the surrounding forced them to. Well its not their fault. We have hypocrites all around and a more than 1000 of years of trends that has such stringent philosophy that your life gets stranglehold for ever. Hopefully, I and you will realize this and be courageous enough to be what we want.
We need to open our eyes to it, realizing the problem, interpreting them and finally producing ways to solve them. WE CAN/SHOULD GET OUT OF THIS FIX!
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My mind grew restless the whole day. Sometimes, during my Undergraduate course,I used to find enough time and lonely space to ponder whether I would still have been what I am if I was born to a different society or lets say in Mars. The more I thought the more I became cynical of everything around me. I later resigned to the fact that rather than the heavenly stars that the astrologers believe to fix our destiny its circumstances, culture, ethics, religion etc. around us that makes us what we are. In fact, most of these factors had coupled down to fix my path. The difference between me obeying my 'fixed' path and the cricket players' fixing scandal are separated by a thin line of legitimacy and public perception.
I remember when I was in +2,my parents would buy me any number of Text book in Physics but not a cricket bat. Probably by then, my childhood dream of becoming a cricketer had narrowed down to being a better cricketer at college, but still mindset of my parents, resulting from the tradition(where playing sports at free time is supposed to hamper regular studies) that they were up brought in, did not let me own a proper cricketing bat. That was a less subtle form of fixing as I was equally passionate to both Physics and Cricket. Giving one up for another was a bitter truth that I had realized by then.
However, when I passed out my +2 I was fixed up big time. I realized studying Physics, in most cases, would lead me being a teacher in Nepal. We lacked proper research facilities and the option of studying abroad seemed almost bleak with a one off bad Physics score in Grade 11. Fixed by the circumstances engineering seemed to be the closest option. The education system fixed me to an engineering degree. In most cases, I will get a better girl to marry and more dowry (if i accept) for being an engineer compared to a 'physicist'. My family is happy for my father didn't want me to become a teacher like him, me myself might have fallen to the lure of 'Er' tag., whatever be the case I was rather helplessly fixed than those IPL fellows. Yet none are arrested or accused of.
So for most Nepalese, lets say a Brahmin boy, we have billions of girls to fall in love and marry as a boy; but well we are at most eligible to some hundreds fixed by what our parents, society, religion thinks amenable to us. And when Nepalese go to vote this time around they shall have the same leaders ahead of them as that of the failed CA. Things are fixed and we shall circle around them until something as radical as nothing that has happened yet shall happen.
Complaining all along,however I feel equally privileged to have my friends and family who helped me protect the core of what I am. I still think the same way that I used to in Grade 5. Whenever I had an opportunity to take decision independently, I feel I have taken it following the same pattern that I followed as a child. I feel proud that I have got my basics intact. Sometimes I feel for persons who were so cool earlier but have changed the belief and their corresponding ambition because the surrounding forced them to. Well its not their fault. We have hypocrites all around and a more than 1000 of years of trends that has such stringent philosophy that your life gets stranglehold for ever. Hopefully, I and you will realize this and be courageous enough to be what we want.
We need to open our eyes to it, realizing the problem, interpreting them and finally producing ways to solve them. WE CAN/SHOULD GET OUT OF THIS FIX!
Great thinking, I too believe people should stop living like computer programs. Come on, we are worth more than the way we live and think.
ReplyDeleteExactly mate! We need to gather people who have realized this and push further
ReplyDeleteyeah i appreciate ur words. great writing man.!!
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot!
DeleteI so agree with you. Never thought of it before but after reading your post I realize how true it is. Things are fixed for us the instant we are born. Ironic.
ReplyDeleteYa that's how it is, only passionate and dedicated minds have courage to break the shackles.
DeleteThis is the way how it goes.. Every word of yours tells about us and the way we are brought up to and end up being someone to :-)
ReplyDeleteYa that's how it is unfortunately! Hope we overcome the orthodoxy!
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