WE DESERVE BETTER

Picture courtesy: Mr. Pradhan Photography

Last week, I saw two photos that reveal the emotion within Nepali immigrating for jobs, especially to Gulf and other Asian countries.  I don’t think we deserve this. We Nepali, do not need everything perfect. A bit of mismanagement, a bit of delay, a hint of carefreeness –these are things we have been digesting easily and essentially is also an inadvertent result of our cultural and social ethics. As much as we are friendly, there will be hint of carelessness; as much as we are tolerant there will be hint of negligence; as much as we are open we invite unsought hazards.

                           

Picture courtesy @sr_suraj twitter

But things have gone out of hand so much that we have to wave good bye to our loved ones, not with the feeling of adventure but with the feeling of a twisted gut. That decision is made not being able to fathom another last resort to pay mortgage for the last harvest that did not happen. The nervousness of an 18 year old boy leaving his parents to work in scorching heat in hard labour, the nervousness of a 40 year old women who knows only Nepali, to work as a domestic worker in a completely different cultural setting full with risks of mental and physical abuse. Somebody has to be accountable for that. All of us can’t shy away from taking responsibility. At least those of us who have access to read these very lines, we are privileged enough to change course of history and bring justice to the worthy.                                                                                

People with degrees and capital must look at themselves in the mirror and take responsibility. Blaming political leadership is one thing, but they with their incompetence being able to serve this long is beyond any reasonable excuse. They are not staying at top due to their connection with foreign intelligence agents or their shrewd political move but due to ridiculous submission of our educated middle class. The knowledge that our degrees have brought has not been sufficient enough to create jobs for the hardworking. While, the World Cup Stadiums are being built by our hands, we at home have not been able to provide employment just by repairing our only National Stadium after the earthquake. Instead, we have looked for shortcuts into easy INGO money or security of the bureaucracy. The capital that we have has not been invested wisely enough to create jobs to negate the need of foreign employment.

                   

The right question is we have not worked hard enough. We have been indifferent to the emotions of people whose blood and toil makes our country run. Look, what an example we have been, that our fellow brothers and sisters feel proud to come home with an LED TV rather than an innovative entrepreneurial idea that avoids the tragedy of returning back. With most of our ancestors being self-sustaining hardworking peasant one way or the other, success today means being in luxury without running the hard mile. It’s time we expect no less from each other and disown the incompetent thugs who have stagnated our leadership. But that should not only start from a political front, but by waves of youth ready to work hard shamelessly in their own soil, not behind curtains of a fancy Visa or PR documentation.

WE WILL (HAVE TO) FIND OUR OWN WAY

Its been nearly a month since I have arrived in the US for my graduate study. The experience may be short to come to a concrete conclusion but it certainly has initiated some thoughts.

For a Nepali guy  abroad , especially in the West, two difference strikes the most. One is the functioning system sustained through grids of massive infrastructure and utility services. The other is the individualism that pervades over everything from study classes to your apartment neighbourhood. We as Nepal, would lose our identity if we loose our community interdependence, and certainly would be a poor country if we leave our infrastructure as it is.

The West is not going to teach us ways to develop our infrastructure and promote community interdependence through it. Because they have never done it by themselves. By infrastructure, I don't mean simply big roads and big hydro power projects. Our infrastructure need to support our core values. An example is home stay services provided by some villages in Nepal. Though it requires a clean locality, a regular supply of fresh food and clean water, proper hygiene it is not just another hotel service.  

However, careful implementation of Western sustainable technical advancements correlated with our values brings in success. The success of Manakamana Cable Car is directly derived from the religious values it is associated with. It may not succeed as a general means of transportation, though. It will still take years for apples in our mountains to get its price. However, a distillation centre or a collective enterprise promoted in form of jam and other similar dishes can make the product live longer and even find its price through airways. It will be easier to invest in rather than a mega hydropower project, but in essence shall preserve our values of community interdependence. Cheese factories have survived in remote areas, as it receives government care . A government owned distillary firm may have been a distant thought some decades ago, but with inclusiveness at its highest it might just be an enterprise to break the moral hegemony of Nepal.

And in another case, while states within US have started making revenue out of selling marijuana, we instead spend valuable revenue in curtailing it. As a majority of tourist hubs in Nepal tolerate its use by foreigners it can be at least legalised to foreigners (like casinos) with certain tax levied during the visa for foreigner intending to consume it. Unlike tobacco, marijuana thrives in diversity and community farming  at discrete location shall always able to compete with highly budgeted pharmaceuticals producing it in controlled environment. The revenue thus garnered shall directly trickle to the community and tax is centrally collected through a small tick at immigration.

These are simply thoughts which are bound to have imperfection. However, our journey should begin.  We will (have to) find our own way!

Ekla Cholo Re - Tagore

 "Bengali Script

যদি তোর ডাক শুনে কেউ না আসে তবে একলা চলো রে।
একলা চলো, একলা চলো, একলা চলো, একলা চলো রে॥

যদি কেউ কথা না কয়, ওরে ওরে ও অভাগা,
যদি সবাই থাকে মুখ ফিরায়ে সবাই করে ভয়—
তবে পরান খুলে
ও তুই মুখ ফুটে তোর মনের কথা একলা বলো রে॥

যদি সবাই ফিরে যায়, ওরে ওরে ও অভাগা,
যদি গহন পথে যাবার কালে কেউ ফিরে না চায়—
তবে পথের কাঁটা
ও তুই রক্তমাখা চরণতলে একলা দলো রে॥

যদি আলো না ধরে, ওরে ওরে ও অভাগা,
যদি ঝড়-বাদলে আঁধার রাতে দুয়ার দেয় ঘরে-
তবে বজ্রানলে
আপন বুকের পাঁজর জ্বালিয়ে নিয়ে একলা জ্বলো রে।।

Romanization[edit]

Jodi tor đak shune keu na ashe tôbe êkla chôlo re,
Êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo re.

Jodi keu kôtha na kôe, ore ore o ôbhaga,
Jodi shôbai thake mukh firaee shôbai kôre bhôe—
Tôbe pôran khule
O tui mukh fuţe tor moner kôtha êkla bôlo re.

Jodi shôbai fire jae, ore ore o ôbhaga,
Jodi gôhon pôthe jabar kale keu fire na chae—
Tôbe pôther kãţa
O tui rôktomakha chôrontôle êkla dôlo re.

Jodi alo na dhôre, ore ore o ôbhaga,
Jodi jhôŗ-badole ãdhar rate duar dêe ghôre—
Tôbe bojranôle
Apon buker pãjor jalie nie êkla jôlo re.

Hindi translation[edit]

तेरी आवाज़ पे कोई ना आये तो फिर चल अकेला रे
फिर चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला रे
ओ तू चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला रे

तेरी आवाज़ पे कोई ना आये तो फिर चल अकेला रे
फिर चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला रे

यदि कोई भी ना बोले ओरे ओ रे ओ अभागे कोई भी ना बोले
यदि सभी मुख मोड़ रहे सब डरा करे
तब डरे बिना ओ तू मुक्तकंठ अपनी बात बोल अकेला रे
ओ तू मुक्तकंठ अपनी बात बोल अकेला रे

तेरी आवाज़ पे कोई ना आये तो फिर चल अकेला रे

यदि लौट सब चले ओरे ओ रे ओ अभागे लौट सब चले
यदि रात गहरी चलती कोई गौर ना करे
तब पथ के कांटे ओ तू लहू लोहित चरण तल चल अकेला रे

तेरी आवाज़ पे कोई ना आये तो फिर चल अकेला रे

यदि दिया ना जले ओरे ओ रे ओ अभागे दिया ना जले
यदि बदरी आंधी रात में द्वार बंद सब करे
तब वज्र शिखा से तू ह्रदय पंजर जला और जल अकेला रे
ओ तू हृदय पंजर चला और जल अकेला रे

तेरी आवाज़ पे कोई ना आये तो फिर चल अकेला रे
फिर चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला रे
ओ तू चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला चल अकेला रे

Translation into English[edit]

Here is the translation in prose of the Bengali original rendered by Rabindranath Tagore himself.^[6]

If they answer not to thy call walk alone

If they are afraid and cower mutely facing the wall,

O thou unlucky one,

open thy mind and speak out alone.

If they turn away, and desert you when crossing the wilderness,

O thou unlucky one,

trample the thorns under thy tread,

and along the blood-lined track travel alone.

If they do not hold up the light when the night is troubled with storm,

O thou unlucky one,

with the thunder flame of pain ignite thy own heart,

and let it burn alone." - Rabindra Nath Tagore.

via Wikipedia

(I think this poem has a self sufficient explanation. It would be disrespect to the poet, if you take the below passage as an explanation of a regular poem done in a literature class. The following is just what came across me while listening to the poem. In fact its just a way of convincing myself the greatness of poet's word.)

This poem has helped me many a times! Sometimes you need to walk alone! None may believe you, not because they don't love you, not because they are selfish but just because they can't comprehend what you are up to. Sometimes, you are the only one on your plans and the only one who believes in your ability to deliver.

It helps let go jealousy too! You do get jealous and hurt when somebody who used to accolade you when in the usual theme of the world, now is in somebody else's flank just because you changed your dream! They are right on their own! Probably, they have their own path to walk alone, if they have to! Why would they when their current path is filled with lot of wonderful people? You can't blame a Hanuman devotee women of not remaining unmarried. Even Hanuman's lord Ram was a married guy! Just let that go and walk alone..!

Great people must have! Buddha would have been a foolish prince just like Rana Bahadur Shah (who apparently left Kathmandu to meet his exiled wife in Kashi that let the Rana plan their regime) had he left walking alone until the last moment of Nirvana. None must have believed in Buddha until he attained Nirvana, just like we don't believe in Bamjan being the next Buddha. Its not that Buddha being the man he was didn't love his family and friend ; he had bigger things to do. I wouldn't have blamed Buddha's wife if she had married another guy. Like, she might have her own struggle to walk alone for, let's assume 'women empowerment' in the then royal court. Perhaps, Buddha wouldn't have walked with her out of his penance. She should have walked alone and had she done that even by marrying a new guy to prove a point, she would have been worth it.

So, when I see people stacking up their friend list in Facebook, or giving follow back offer in Twitter; i feel it's okay until they will find an unique path to walk. No chat or tweet will bring them in his path until s/he shows it by himself. You'll have to walk alone and let them go.

And here's Shreya Goshal singing this poem. Have a good day!

Ekla Chalo re: Tagore song by Shreya Goshal

Cricket! Young and Free!!

After you are done with your graduation there are few things that make you be young and free. For many of us one of those few things must be playing cricket. Yeah, carrying couple of bats, pads, stumps and ready to get set on a half mile journey jotting out expert plans to outfox the opposition. After fixing of the bet amount and the boundary rules, ready get set go! Winning such bet used to be worth it because saving was more valuable when we didn't earn.  With exuberance of youth use to come the confidence of playing a match even though you didn't have a penny to pay later! Now it’s lost! You are more matured! However, like an adult driver who presses the accelerator testing the limits of his teenage wilderness, you are always daring to repeat similar peccadilloes from your youth!

courtesy: kctcplayers.blogspot.com

The time you bat, you are the prince at the center of a kingdom. Unlike many other moments in life, once in the crease, none can get you off it unless for your own ability. You are free as wind to hit the ball anywhere. You now no more need a recommendation letter from Lara to hit a pull shot with both feet in the air neither do you need an internship at Dilshan and Co. to hit over the keeper’s head. This feeling of freedom makes you young. Actually, it’s not ageing that makes you less young, it’s living in cage of a cubicle that makes you older. Here, in the crease there are guards to let you know your territory inside the popping crease. However, you can take the step out of it, take the risk, test your courage and maximize the benefits. A towering six would do no harm after all this is the only time you don’t need a visa to cross the boundary.

Every moment is for you to savor. The precise moment before you take the catch you forget all of it-your career, your love, your success and your degree. It’s more of a ball coming into your hand now. In a flash of a second, a group of other 10 men have expectation from you. Your hands begin to shift by itself. And even if it be the easiest of catches, you feel that joy when it sticks your hand – a joy that you can hardly describe in word. The team’s huddle to celebrate the catch substitutes the agony of a board meeting. What a joyful substitute? Perhaps, even more than having Andrew Flintoff as your super sub.

Well, honestly I have bowled very few overs that were good. So, when I attempted to write a passage about how bowling is, I got bowled. You can enjoy the gentlemen’s game but you can’t fake to succeed in it –a very important message for life. If you are faking to enjoy your life, better rebuild your life techniques now than to get yorked after a slow and match losing 60.

Oh! And more importantly the greatest joy is when your teammates relate your inning with some of cricket’s greatest! Finally, your teenage dream of being an international cricketer has partially been fulfilled. Cheers! 

RUNNING IN CIRCLES

Last week when I returned from a month long stay at Rumjhatar; I was accompanied by a Gurung guy who had already travelled to three countries in search of better job opportunities. He was scheduled to fly to Kuwait within the next two days. What he raised was a very pertinent issue- an issue related to remittance. He used the term called 'ponding' to make his otherwise complex understanding of remittance economy simple. He rightly pointed out that remittance that enters into Nepal doesnot form a pond of capital. It rather stays for a while until the benefitting family decides to buy some foreign goods of luxury or send their children to higher education abroad. Without productivity of our own what remittance is doing is creating pseudo wealth. It appears we are more dependent on foreign items than ever. The money comes in hard, but goes out easy. In a simplistic way, our labor is a form of mortgage which gives us loan that we repay in random installments back to the source. From a new Samsung cellphone to a Nataraj Pencil we are paying installments back to the source. Yeah, we will have that pencil and cellphone to show for our labor, but that means Samsung or Nataraj is now more capable of attracting Nepalese to their factories as well. And there's a visicious circle. We will now be too lazy to open an industry of our own. We will rather work on already established factories of foreign countries and send chunk of our earning back buying the same goods that we produced. As perfect as- "Ghumi  Phiri Rumjhatar".Well, more on that from a student of economics perhaps!  Now I would like to correlate this running on circles issue to other parts of our society.

Let's consider the rap battle leagues that we have in Nepal. Look at the ordinary sense of it. How ordinary the performances are and how ordinary their rap is? The artists are running behind something unfathomable to a normal Nepali. For a colored person born in a Ghetto of a sub urban Western city- a rage of not knowing his own dad may befit cursing his own mom. But, how on Earth could that be possible for guys from Nepal? What they sing completely undermines what our society is built upon and they take it so easily. What is that supposed to communicate even if it is only to guys above 18? Some blame for such outrageously sick form of singing may go to wannabe western themed stars, greedy sponsors or ethically unaware citizens. However, it mainly is because we run blindly in circle of Western 'liberty'. A 'liberty' which appears to be the most democratic as porn stars host their own Oscars but equally dark as government carry out covert mass surveillance. What 'liberty' did we inherit? In the process of inheriting the universal principles of freedom we also let in permeate trends that upsets majority of Nepalese sentiment. In a race to prove our liberty- even though we are the poorest among the poors- we let in things that we did not need at all. Our rap battlists will run the always losing race of pursuing the Western rap battlists. The thing is in their blood but it’s in our head. And why is it their? It’s because somebody poured in money to make us run a losing race. A filthier race too!

Okay enough of that too!

Now imagine a lady in a disco of Kathmandu's rated hotel having been intoxicated by a high quality wine. Imagine some guys taking advantage of her! Imagine the scare that would create in our media. Imagine how fearful you will be sending your sisters and daughters to a late night party again. Now take your turn to take another route to imagine the same. A female laborer in a construction site drinks a local Kodho brewed beverage after hard day at work. Coming out of the Bhatti some guys misbehave with her. Honestly, do you think our media, police and matter of fact most of us; would we care of that as much as the former lady? Did our society permit or differentiated on a lady being intoxicated by wine or by a local beverage some decades ago or has it changed lately? Probably a lady sounds independent drinking high quality wine.

And we are more thoughtful speaking about her case- perhaps we don't want to offend what western liberty has brought- that girls too can enjoy their trip of alcohol. But isn't the female laborer independent too; don't she deserve to have same pint of drink after she works as equally hard as her male counterparts. But where does our  police arrives first? Where do our female right activists move first? Where do our television cameras report first? Clearly to the lady tipsy in wine.  After all the western liberty allows you to drown in 'Western' branded alcohol- that liberty which our upper corporate class has inherited and permeated into our society. And most of us would be normal with our worker lady since like she just had local raksi in a mediocre bhatti- what was she expecting? Shouldn't she have known male who are drunk in wine are more sensible than men who are drunk in Local Kodho? And after all who in the news would be moved by showing of a woman covered in dust being sexually abused. That is not  glamorous , you know? A girl drinking wine and she got abused. Well, many won't want to tell this but the truth is media is knowingly feeding on those female victims to make their crime reporting more glamorous. What irony? What liberty are we persisting with? The liberty to make a sexual offence glamorous!

Another set of people running on crazy confusing circles are our Football fans of the football league of European countries. Honestly, Messi doesn't care if u speak filthy of Ronaldo to make him a superior player. It’s not that calling Manchester Gaychester is going to make Gerrad happy. But why our youths get happy? Well let me put my hypothesis. Football is a fast moving game, 90 minutes and it finishes. However, it has so many tactical maneuvers within that 90 minute, the commentator fails to explain even a  tiny fraction of that. He is just busy telling us the action. So, must of our Nepalese fans (I mean no disrespect to those fans who understand football technically enough)watch this fast heated action and are always on the urge to show themselves off as one who saw matches live. Now that you don't understand the technicality of the game, what do u discuss on? Oh Yeah! Wayne Rooney's wife? Yeah, however bitter does it sound it's the truth- the simple looking game of football is complex tactically and if you got a grasp of it you don't really have time to talk bullshits about footballers and their family. Correspondingly look at cricket, its long to watch and commentators give ample analysis regarding its tactical aspect. And the result is during the IPL, rarely do people call Kohli a gay for his team won even if by a wrong umpiring decision. (And i am not trying to be biased as a cricket fan, that's the easiest example that came into me. You can say the same for sports like golf, moto racing etc.) 

So, when shall we stop running in circles that lead us to nowhere. When shall we stop being what westerners are already good at and just be a mere faint shadow of it. When shall we know the value of ourselves?Maybe this year! Happy New Year 2071 B.S.!

FEARS AFTER GRADUATING

Now that the four years at college has ended, new sets of dilemma have begun to creep into me. To differentiate between what I want to be and what graduating is forcing upon me has been tougher than what I had expected it to be.


Last week, on a chilly Sunday morning , I was ever so close to getting a job. A real 9-5 job. Fortunately the job was not there for me, and that has given me enough time to ponder upon what changes a 'real' job would bring in me. The changes were horrifying.

With a friend with whom I studied at school, I sat down to analyze what we were up to after graduating. First thing that strike us was we could not go to TU ground to watch Nepal play unless for real coincidence. We could not hang out unless for Friday nights. In fact, the biggest fear was we were about to lose control over our lives, and hand it over to someone else. Someone else who has more money than us, or is more experienced than us or to sum it up the one whom we envy in secret. The one who is yeah not wholly 'free' from burdens of this 'sell your time and skill if you want some money' but ya more free enough to enjoy the same desire as that of ours in a more recurring fashion.

The choice is still ours. We could fight on with what our beliefs are for another extra yard. Every day that passes now without a contract paper with our name on it , is a day which we survived to die another day. The dreams that we built our life on, the control we wished to have on our destiny will slowly fade as we will be another commodity that someone will tame with a whip as wicked as money.

To mark this feeling, I remember two quotes.

Karl Marx, "For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood."~ The German Ideology

Paraphrasing Osho, "Why do hippies leave their earlier lifestyle begin to settle and marry around 35? Because their mind finally makes them lose their battle to become unique, their mind wins over their being and brings them back to the crowd." ~ The Search

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a shepherd, or a critical critic and must remain so if he does not wish to lose his means of livelihood; while in communist society, where nobody has one exclusive sphere of activity but each can become accomplished in any branch he wishes, society regulates the general production and thus makes it possible for me to do one thing today and another tomorrow, to hunt in the morning, to fish in the afternoon, rear cattle in the evening,criticize after dinner, just as I have in mind, without ever becoming hunter, fisherman, shepherd or critic.
Read more at http://www.notable-quotes.com/m/marx_karl.html#4ucUGpLsypoU7OLO.99

BE READY TO BE FOOLED THIS MANGSHIR!

Well, we are coming just off the Bill O' Reilly abuse of our fellow Sudarsan Thapa. He is ignorant, you may say, enough to pull ofF such a lame joke; but you will never find him telling this election at Nepal is going to be a comic show. Otherwise, he will sadly be telling the truth which he is not so known for.

I don't  know how we come to be so credulous to believe in our leaders, to vote them again and again to the echelons of power, to see them fall again, and to vote them back to the pinnacle of power and see them do the same. It is the 'charisma' of election based democracy in the 3rd world country.It blinds us, it feigns at us pretending to give every one of us with undeniable power to choose, but the reality shows our choices have revolved around a very few. The past 20 years are enough to prove the point. It was not elections that brought the Maoist into power. Every time a revolution has had to be in place to make Nepalese realize a new legitimate political force was born or dismissed. Lets do election another score of time and still we will revolve around the same sets of ideals and ideologues. It rather seems a party convention plays more critical role of bringing in new leaders.In a lifetime, an average person may vote up to 8 times, provided regular elections happen. It seems that is not enough for us to realize what is happening is a recurring dream. I sincerely hope we could catch that abuse in the first show just like we did with that O' Reilly's bullshit.

The defeated mentality of us and our leaders plays a part in every subservient move we make. Like a down in confidence player does whatever practice drills the coach says to be back in the team; our leaders, who fell out with India or somebody else at some point of time, do the 'practice drill'- the CA-II. I know there is no option now that we have chosen CA as the form of making constitution. Going back would mean destabilizing the achievements of 2063 B.S. revoultion. But in the mean time,  failure of another CA ensure will ensure the same. However, it is amazing how the intellectuals, the media, and the leaders have turned their blind eye to this possibility.

So, why they have ignored this possibility? Especially, when we have done nothing new to change the final result. The reason is more apparent than what it seems to be. Our fellow top leaders must have been trained by the 'coach' to a certain set of constitution already. The Madheshi parties concluding 'Ek Madhesh Ek Pradesh' is no possibility, the UCPN Maoist's ex PM BRB saying that ethnic federalism is a ideal that must be revised upon and etc. shows the heterogeneity among the parties is already solved by some form of coaching or at least will be. It is now no more a race to make a constitution of own ideology, but it is a 'practice' race to show who is among the popular votes in Nepal, and accordingly be chosen by the 'coach' as the 'play maker' for the moves they propose to implement.

This is even more bolstered by the confidence the main 4 parties have shown to go on with the election even though Baidya was narrowing his demands to take part in the election. Baidya, seeing the popular support not with him, must have thought of taking part in the election. But the puppets of the master drew their own calculation that favored Baidya being out of the election. Especially for the UCPN Maoist the exclusion of Baidya means no division of votes among the Maoist. He was either for unification of the two Maoists or if not then pushing them out of the election. With the radical image that the Baidyas already have it was easy to fool us, however except for Netra Bikram Chand, must Maoist leaders advocated participation in the forthcoming election. It is ridiculous how 'blessings' from external power gives enough confidence,even at the cost of deployment of the army, so as to exclude a legitimate force off elections though it was narrowing demands.

The media is so anti Baidya, it is tough for him to survive at urban bases. It is obvious even through latest works like 'Prayogshala' that foreign interference is present in even the most minuscule of government affairs. In such case, how can constitution be independent of it? His proposal of Round Table Conference, though may not be the most genuine of thoughts, was at least a try towards molding consensus withing the Nepalese forces which would diminish  foreign influence.The media points out yet another chance of violent saga to demonize Baidya, though there is little chance he will do the same. I would have been the last person to support an orthodox Communist like Baidya, but seeing his plight I feel mercy for him. Now the big 4s whatever their make up be in the CA-II will endorse the ready made phantom constitution. Apparently the CA-II will turn a hit, and Baidya will be insidiously removed from Nepalese politics. What a loss! Though a advocate of violent rebellion, which is a tragedy in itself, at least he has seen the tragedy of rural Nepalese to whom even Nepal Banda fails to make a difference. At least there is a  remenance of the 'People war'( =yet another tragedy), who still is standing to the reason it were fought for and the people who died for it. The Prachands and BRBs are thinking the war period as a mere dream that has passed away. Neither they repent the war as unnecessary neither they work differently than regular parliamentary force.What a waste of so many lives! Well, its pity to see people like Baidya and his followers being sidelined by the Nepalese themselves for pithy self interests and severe manipulation.We are once again pushed back some 20 odd years. Sorry to say, but Mr. Baidya its good bye to you, at least for now.

So, whoever we elect the result is going to be the same. The constitution as we all have seen in the past will be made in a Resort, and it is pretty easy to put in a imported sets of document there. The 601 we send are mere comedians. Especially when we have seen a defeated fellow, Madhav Nepal, elected as the PM.Now if he is elected again, what does that mean in span of 4 years what change occurred that justifies his back to the hot seat. Nothing, just a comic randomization.